three things:
 
1. I chose to get help.  I was sick and tired of the roller coaster guilt and shame and feeling better, back and forth.  I wanted and needed to help myself
 
2. Looking at other men of various ages helped me believe I was one of many with this struggle but not as much as telling them out loud specifically what i have done.  Hearing myself say it and seeing nodding heads and understanding glances healed my soul a bit.  These men have seen what I have seen, done what I have done, and some of them have done it for longer than I have been alive but they are here.  They refuse to give up.
 
3. Guilt is good, but shame is bad.  Shame is a lie that you are bad.  Guilt is a truth that sin is bad.  If I convince myself that I am good and that I refuse to belittle myself, Satan cannot attack my self-worth.  He needs to attack my actions.  And I can renounce those

Age: 26